Why do I bother to make or attempt to make plans with people when they have a tendency to turn around and go yeah I've made other plans, I'll talk to you later, have fun tho on your own. All I want to know it why it happens? Why does it always happen? And why the hell do I continue to put up with shit!

Two choices, drop the people that have continueously done this, or continue to put up with it?
The first is what I'm thinking
I really don't need this right now
I don't have any close friends anymore, but thats not the biggest issue, what am I doing that is causeing all this to happen, why does it continuely happen

And in tribute to St. Patrick, this part of the entry it green
To those who treat me like a human being, you know who you are and I thank you so much for being there for me. especially when I needed you the most.