realizations
:::START TIME 9:41 am:::
Morning all, I'm at work multi tasking as usual. But then again thats good since it allows me to slow my work speed like they asked. Too efficent *rolls eyes* I think they are just underestimating me, but once again thats nothing new. The past weekend was fantastic, things with people are mending, karma is balancing out.
The realizations that are upcoming is, I no real direction for the future. I'm taking a course that I love , but I don't know if it will actually be what I continue to do. And to finish off the scholarship should i finish my education degree or go and get a business degree. What I do know is that I want to be able to work with fabrics, I want to create my own stuff. I want to design, and I want to be able to sell my work. But is the program I'm taking currently going to help me do that. Right now the program is fun, entertaining and teaching me stuff I was interested in, helping me develope a better understanding of the underlining themes and knowledge of design elements.
But is taking it cause I'm having fun a goodreason for taking it?
Another realization is I'm always alone. The room could be filled with a bunch of people I know and consider friends, but I always feel alone. Guess thats why I usually end up closing myself off and stay guarded around people. I'm just anti social oh well, not much I can do to change that, have tried and failed on numerous occassions.
One more thing before I go. How is it my fault that my sister tried to kill herself? How is it that it is always my fault that she'll hurt herself. I wasn't the one to put the bottle of pills down her throat, I w asn't the one to pull out her eyebrows and eye lashes. I would really love to know where her quack learned these theories and what information she has to support them. In my opinion(i am not a doctor or psyciatrist nor do i claim to be oe or have their learned knowledge from an overly expensive college and or university I AM NOT A DOCTOR) I would think telling someone that it is their fault that X person is doing this to themselves, would be more harmful then good. But thats just my opinion.
I guess that all I have to say for the moment
I don't exept any answers to the questions
I never do
I was venting and its helpful to have a record so that I could go over andreview and analyse and hopefully find answers or perhaps hidden answers to the questions I have asked and created
:::END TIME 10:36 am:::
Morning all, I'm at work multi tasking as usual. But then again thats good since it allows me to slow my work speed like they asked. Too efficent *rolls eyes* I think they are just underestimating me, but once again thats nothing new. The past weekend was fantastic, things with people are mending, karma is balancing out.
The realizations that are upcoming is, I no real direction for the future. I'm taking a course that I love , but I don't know if it will actually be what I continue to do. And to finish off the scholarship should i finish my education degree or go and get a business degree. What I do know is that I want to be able to work with fabrics, I want to create my own stuff. I want to design, and I want to be able to sell my work. But is the program I'm taking currently going to help me do that. Right now the program is fun, entertaining and teaching me stuff I was interested in, helping me develope a better understanding of the underlining themes and knowledge of design elements.
But is taking it cause I'm having fun a goodreason for taking it?
Another realization is I'm always alone. The room could be filled with a bunch of people I know and consider friends, but I always feel alone. Guess thats why I usually end up closing myself off and stay guarded around people. I'm just anti social oh well, not much I can do to change that, have tried and failed on numerous occassions.
One more thing before I go. How is it my fault that my sister tried to kill herself? How is it that it is always my fault that she'll hurt herself. I wasn't the one to put the bottle of pills down her throat, I w asn't the one to pull out her eyebrows and eye lashes. I would really love to know where her quack learned these theories and what information she has to support them. In my opinion(i am not a doctor or psyciatrist nor do i claim to be oe or have their learned knowledge from an overly expensive college and or university I AM NOT A DOCTOR) I would think telling someone that it is their fault that X person is doing this to themselves, would be more harmful then good. But thats just my opinion.
I guess that all I have to say for the moment
I don't exept any answers to the questions
I never do
I was venting and its helpful to have a record so that I could go over andreview and analyse and hopefully find answers or perhaps hidden answers to the questions I have asked and created
:::END TIME 10:36 am:::
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